Leather

So, remember when I posted about leather lingerie and trying to fit my big boobs in a crop top? Well, the lingerie finally came and I tried it on and, as suspected, one fit and one didn't.

I mean, it's kind of hard to not fit into a harness, but the other? My boobs were leaking out the sides of the teddy. Not sexy or cute.

Just thought I'd share since I haven't posted in a while. I haven't been online lately but I'll get back into the swing of things.

Does he still want me?

I've talked on the phone for close to 8 hours over the last three days with the guy I had an affair with last year. As I mentioned before, I plan to see him in June. He said I'm free to stay with him for a week or two or a couple of different weekends--whatever works. Of course, it's hard to imagine that I could go and stay with him and not sleep with him but he's assured me that he has no intentions of that happening again. Yeah right.

When we were together the last time, he made the same promises. He said that he just wanted to be friends and that everything we'd do would be perfectly innocent. Oh, sure, we'd sleep in the same bed, of course! But there's nothing odd about that!

And then the first night, he was all over me, kissing me and telling me to undress so that he could see and touch my body. It was incredibly erotic to feel so desired and like he was telling me exactly what he wanted to do. Seriously, that time with him is one of the best sexual experiences of my life.




So naturally I'd love to relive it in June. I just want him to be honest about his expectations and maybe he is. Maybe he expects that nothing will happen. But this is coming from the man who, just a couple of months ago, said that he wasn't so sure that seeing me again was a good idea because he'd strip me naked within a minute of me being in his apartment.

And now?! Now he's saying that nothing will happen and everything is cool. I hope you can understand my confusion.